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If you are anything like me, it is hard to push through disappointment and see God’s perspective on situations. I noticed this within my life when going through the audition process for the Liberty Worship Collective. I came to Liberty in 2014 with a dream of being able to lead worship for our student body. That dream quickly hit a road block my freshman year when I didn’t even make it past the first audition phase. I quickly began doubting myself questioning God, and his plan for my life.
“Why am I not good enough?” “What don’t they see?”
It is so easy for us to question God when things don’t go our way but, when things seem to be going great we give ourselves all the glory. We get caught up in wanting things to go our way, not His way. We are quick to ask God to lead us and take us into the plans He has for us but as soon as He leads us into battles and trials we simply drop back and say God why me?
As I continued my journey at Liberty University, I auditioned a total of 6 separate times before finally making the team.
Yes, 6 separate times.
Each audition stretching, growing and showing me more and more of God’s perspective. It was over this course of my life that I gained a new perspective on life. A new perspective can open your eyes to see that even though you may have doors that keep closing within your life, God has a door just down the road wide open with provisions and glory waiting for you.
During these three years, it wasn’t easy staying persistent to what I knew God was calling me to, but it humbled me and it gave me a patient heart. I realized that prior to this I was not ready to lead my student body, and God didn’t open the door until He knew I was in fact ready. Within all the moments of doubting myself, or second-guessing my calling I always felt God’s presence with me. His presence was enough even when I begged for answers.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.
– James 1-2:3
God’s presence in circumstances isn’t always there to fix problems or give you answers but His presence can be more about realigning your perspective. It’s not easy to change your perspective on things but there is nothing greater than clinging to the vision of the Father, the one who has made all things and knows all things. Once I was able to gain His perspective and fully trust in him, I was then able to be “patiently persistent”.